Last Night In Madison

How Do I Get Here?

2009-05-06T23:57:00.005-05:00

Oh What a Feeling

2009-04-15T15:02:00.005-05:00

It feels so good not to love you.
It feels so good not to remember.
It feels so good to know that i have moved on and not to know what you are doing.
It feels good to wonder and not to care.
It feels good to have forgotten your face, your touch, your laugh and most of all my feelings for you.
It feels so good not to have you, want you, nor miss you.
It feels good to realize that no matter what you confess, explain or do, I won't take you back.
It feels so good to finally be done.

Whats love got to do with it?

2009-04-14T17:30:00.004-05:00

Today I spent most of the morning looking at online dating/escort services b/c of this NYT article my friend sent me. Basically it comes down to be a "sugar baby" orrrr marry a millionaire?!?!

$5,000-10,000/month just to chill with an old man?! I'm seriously considering it for the next year of my life....

.... and clearly I'm not the only one seeking a new mate. True love, like chivalry, is dissolving in the hands of an emerging alternative culture. Get over it and get online. ;-)

Lindsay Lohan's eHarmony Profile from Lindsay Lohan

mydreamsdrivemeCRAZY

2009-04-06T02:22:00.004-05:00

Lost.and.Found

2009-03-28T17:53:00.003-05:00

I'm standing at the deep end of my life right now looking...down... back... forward... and I can't help but wonder "is this life?" Getting yourself into situations that don't come with a simple manual and knowing that no matter how long you think about your next move, its probably going to be the wrong one to someone?!

L.A.t.e. n.i.g.h.t.

2009-03-26T02:27:00.002-05:00

CoLA FW: Saturday Recap from benjamin bator on Vimeo.

Glam Punk = My Calling?!

2009-03-24T13:23:00.008-05:00

Love this shirt, makes me wanna take out those white pants i made:

"Where can I find girls with asymmetrical haircuts and guys in skinny jeans?"

BlackBook.com:

Nicole Richie & Peter Bjorn and John

That.GUY

2009-03-24T11:14:00.010-05:00

Life in the SHOES (and they are some great shoes may I add) of.....

BEN BETTER.....

Sitting in the library makes me realize Spring Break is O-V-E-R and its back to reality. But I must say I wouldn't have wanted to spend it any other way than with my bff. This guy, who is usually pointed out as that guy (still don't know if thats a BPB or P.bob term but ever since I've left MI I find myself saying it a lot), lives in the most Utopian lifestyle (most of the time) one can come across in the murder mitten.

self-proclaimed "professional" blogger. amateur photographer (takes amazing picture BTW). website entrepreneur. fashionista (is that only for girls?). the source of every song in my head. the root of my social media obsessions (twitter). and maybe the love of my life. ben better's world:

As hard of a time I (and all of us) give Ben for doing nothing... Hes actually doign a whole lot of something. His blog is one of my favs. Text From Last Night, AKA my worst nightmare, is taking off and drawing coast to coast contributors. And he just got done taking picture for City of LA Fashion Week?!?! I'm impressed with your unemployment. ;-) He also made my header.

Shout out to Ben for making my SB great and for everything else you do for me.

F-Studying

2009-03-10T14:34:00.004-05:00

This video makes me wanna throw down my books, scream at the top of lungs in the middle of the library, run out and... well...
DO SOMETHING CCCRRAAZZZYYY!

MyGiRLs

2009-03-03T16:30:00.004-06:00

"WE own the night,
we own our souls,
we own our hearts,
we're outta control..."

Idealism, Materialism and Empiricism....

2009-03-03T15:37:00.013-06:00

.... What's it to fame?

"Fame, what you get is no tomorrow." David Bowie
PC: ILOVEFAKE

Seaon 5

2009-02-26T15:24:00.000-06:00

Spencer is still an asshole.
Lauren is still a pushover.
Audrina still has nothing important to say.
Lo is still trying to ride the wave of LC's fame.
Brody is still hott.
And Heidi is still annoying as f**k.

Is it worth investing my time in the next season?

Simple as B&W

2009-02-26T15:17:00.001-06:00

just.a.good.laugh

2009-02-18T22:49:00.001-06:00

Today was full of funny internet encounters.
Both classics and capturing of reality in my book.

This one might be the best.

This is the reason I don't watch trashy reality TV shows.

Repressing my desires as I become socialized

2009-02-17T19:54:00.000-06:00

Employed

2009-02-15T16:25:00.000-06:00

Capturing our time...

"i looked into being a stripper, but i would have needed legit C's

then i looked into being a cab driver, but im not 25

i legit dont even qualify for bottom of the barrel jobs"

... Just guess who would do that

You're the right kind of wrong

2009-02-11T17:14:00.001-06:00

will you be mine?

Outfit of Last Night

2009-02-11T15:04:00.000-06:00

Yeah its winter but for the last couple days Wisconsin seemed more like LA. A brief heatwave got us all having spring fever! and dressing like it too.

The Day

2009-02-07T11:59:00.001-06:00

You miss someone so much for so long then one day you forget what it felt like to even have your body next to theirs and finally without even realizing it you move on.

PC: Kate Orne

New Trend!?

2009-02-03T13:32:00.001-06:00

Remember when Ray Ban redesigned/relaunched/brought back (whatever you want to call it) the Wayfarer sunglasses?! We were all like whaaa- that's kinda cool and now like everybody and their mother wears em'... WELL... is this the new thing for spring, revived from the early 50s and ready to take over modern day fashion once again?!

The "round" sunglasses... hmm... Chanel designed a line and MK (an original Wayfarer vintage frame trend setter) is already down for the cause... I'm def. going to jump on this trend train. Check it.

My SUPEREGO and ID are in constant conflict

2009-02-03T00:00:00.000-06:00

Love this site/ this guy's work/ these homes (or "work spaces"). Amazingggg - straight up!

Melina's Shout OUTSSSS

2009-02-02T14:19:00.000-06:00

SO to yesterday being the drunkest day/night of my life (thank you bloody mary's), then writing a depressing blog ... and to Rachel for throwing up in her bed.

SO to Matt Wolk for thinking he was Hercules and during the game trying to rip his shirt off when the Steelers stopped the Cardinals with a couple minutes left... The best part was that you failed then had to go the rest of the night with your collar all stretched out (oh wait no, you changed into that child size pink polo).

ASO (anti-shout out) to Bruce - your halftime show blew.

SO to the 75 year old man in our 450 class with a picture of a kitten taped to his binder - you are adorable.

SO to Hunto for finally getting back on her blog.

ASO to the man smoking a spliff up Bascom and not giving me a hit.

SO to the guy in my 134 class, we def. have something going on week after week. ;)

When I Get Messed Up... I Think About You...

2009-02-01T23:11:00.000-06:00

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Its FEBRUARY!!! Oh yeahhhh that time of the year where everything that's brown, dull, dirty and dark turns to pink, red, happy and floating hearts. Yes... the time when if you are single, you are reminded of it and if you are attached, you can bask in the glory of your relationship without scrutiny.

Every year (like clockwork) during this month I turn away from my regular techno/house music/remix bs and to that time in my life when I was that "Indy rock girl" with an eyebrow ring (yeahhh image that - me + eyebrow ring... and I had other piercing that I can't really admit to anymore).

At the time, these bands/singers were under the radar and not making hit songs for shows like Gray's Anatomy or going on worldwide tours....This is my "love despair" playlist inspired single handily by my on again/off again hs/college boyfriend (some of the songs may have came out after we broke up for good in 2006, but still remind me 100% of "that" time). This is what might get me through this month:

Does He Really Love You - Rilo Kiley
The First Day of My Life - Bright Eyes
I Want You - Kings of Leon
Such Great Heights - Postal Service
In Love - The Kooks
Lover I Don't Have to Love You - Bright Eyes
Girl is On My Mind - The Black Keys
Forever Young - Alphaville
Desperate Guys - The Faint
Against All Odds - Postal Service

This is the first February I'll spend truly "single" and I'm not really sure how I feel about it yet, but I'll let you know... if I survive it. My number 1 rule for right now (this is to two of you... you know who you are):

No matter who broke your heart or how long it takes to heal
you'll never get through it without your friends.

:) Love you both

"You'd Have to Title it 'Small, Smaller and Smallest'"

2009-01-31T02:42:00.000-06:00

Every time we have a "meetings of the minds" the conversation goes 1 of 2 ways... we either "comment" on everyone we know oorrr we get on a rampage about sex, sexual things, sexy people, etc. Here is what I learned last night (most of which I can honestly say I never knew before, so I'm passing on the knowledge):

1.) I (as in most of the girls in the room) fake it over half the time because....

2.) the vibrator has ruined me. Buyer beware: I hear sex with a man is "never the same and lacks fulfillment" if you become accustomed to a vibrator (must be something about those vibrations)?!

3.) High sex falls superior over almost all sex

4.) If things just are not working for you... get on top...

5.) And if all else fails, may i suggest a vibrating condom (they really makes those?!)...

late night taunt

2009-01-30T01:27:00.000-06:00

this bag is taunting me. taunting me. taunting me. i don't know why b/c its a man's bag. but i want it and i don't even like it that much. in fact i don't think i really like it at all, but someone i once knew had this bag and it brings back those inaccessible memories (or feelings), so i want it.

Memories... God I wish there was some swift procedure to take all those away.

How Do I Get in This Crew?

2009-01-29T10:29:00.000-06:00

OB-SESS-ION

2009-01-28T22:19:00.001-06:00

My first (of MANY) valentines day gifts to my girls:

So check it yo' The New York Times wrote an article about this blog today.

Consider it your new life line to landing a man worth "landing on" (or avoiding). Throw The Rules out, those times have passed us ladies, men aren't what they use to be and same with the economy.

I'm loving every minute of this, I can not get enough, well I do know one way that I could come close to the same satisfaction! Either way, if your love life is in the dump, this could be why!

Just Some Thoughts

2009-01-28T14:45:00.000-06:00

1.) Today the House will vote on an 800+ billion $$ bail out plan... good? bad? I'm not really sure but since I just finished reading The Prince the other day, Machiavelli's words are stuck in my head. "If you act in a way that will get you a reputation of generosity, you will do yourself damage." What does this mean for us and future problems?!

2.) After years of seeing Sonic commercials on TV in WI, where the closet Sonic is about 4 hours away in IL, they finally built one in Middleton and it is predicted to be the largest grossing Sonic in the nation - yeahhh Sconnies- eat em' deep fried cheese! I have never even seen a Sonic - I wonder if the food is any good?!

3.) Hunto and her crossword puzzles in class. Girl - you can't just put any word into those boxes ;) get off the cross (or the wolk) and back onto your blog. We are all missing it - its been over a month. What is going through that girl's head?!

In case you miss US!

Yes Madison...

2009-01-27T15:58:00.000-06:00

...I will wear my rabbit fur vest with pride.

This is the 1st day of my life...

2009-01-26T21:48:00.000-06:00

...then i must memorize 9 numbers and deny i have a soul...

Michael Oats - so much truth about our generation in his photos.

Idolized

2009-01-24T15:51:00.000-06:00

Being in my childhood bedroom made me realize I have had a love affair with the Olsen twins ever since I was little (and they were too)... and still do. Superman, Teenage Mutnat Ninja Turtles, GI Joe, etc. have nothing on the Olsens - talk about true worship.

PPRREETTYY Fly

2009-01-23T02:09:00.000-06:00

"Anyone who wants to be a can't hack it pantywaist who wears their momma's bra, raise your hand."

Madison 2009

2009-01-21T19:19:00.000-06:00

So.. it really is the start of my final semester at Madison... Pumped, scared, drained, anxious - all feelings rushing through my body when I think about walking across that stage and making out with Bucky at the end (yea, I have a mascot fetish).

Some of my classes this semester seem promising, while others will be a test of my patience.

Sociology 134: Problems of American Racial and Ethnic Minorities - If I skip any class its going to be this one. It will be easy but so so boring and day one that girl smelled so bad next to me, it kinda turned me off of going to lecture for the rest of the semester. I don't do well in big lectures, it gives me like an anxiety or something (this one is 400) but the material is a joke, I need an ethnic study credit and there are more brothas in my class than I have seen in my 4 years at Madison combined.

Pol Sci 502: Development of Modern Political Thought - I walked into this class with the professor merrily playing the piano, ummm... I hear this class is a bitch, however, I need it and I think it has promise. We are reading things like The Republic (p bator tells me its worth reading), Nietzsche and Tocqueville. Whoo knows?!

PE 301: Swimming- Let's see after being kicked out of my original swim class, I embark on my new "advanced" one. Besides the fact that if I get hurt Ben Bator will be called (and prob. freak) it will be good to be back in the H2O b/c everyone knows I'm "better in the water" (its my SN - betr in da H2O if you never got that before).

Com Arts 662: Media Theory - I love media theory and I have an ongoing love affair with Professor Curtin, soo the continuation of this class series should be nothing short of satisfying. The only thing I hate is all the PHD and 3rd yr grad students in the class. Back off - I'm the one that needs to impress Curtin.

Legal Studies 450: Religion and Law - If my professor takes a Xanx before class it could be great. I like both subject matters so we'll see how well they fuse together. OHHH NOO - that really annoying girl with blue hair from another one of my classes is in it (she is also the bitch that works at college library computer lab). F-ING A.

My schedule doesn't seem that bad.. But there are things on my shit list already:

1. the looks people give me while I smoke/walk up Bascom (yea ik ik, smoking is over and its a nasty habit... i'm trying to kick it) but come on- its a hike up that hill and that cig is practically my inhaler, so take a step back, chill, and don't kill me with your glares.
2. People talking throughout class.. I'm not that into paying attention and listening but I'm not trying to hear about the D-bag you banged over break... chances are you prob. have STD - so if you don't stop I'm going to take a picture of you and post it all over campus with your "cute little" story below it.
3. The girl that lives above me- if you tell me turn down my music one more time I will slap you. N.A.S.A. can't be played on Bose speakers at minimal volume (its just laws of nature).
4. 3 of my last semester TAs in my classes as students - you prob. gave me a B and I can't believe I took anything you had to say seriously.
5. All the fucking people at the gym. Get over your new years resolutions and get off my tredmill. Where the F were you last semester? Not here.

If these don't go away - Its going to be a long long 4 months.

Mc-QUEEN designs for the commoners

2009-01-21T13:34:00.000-06:00

Alexander McQeen's designs for his Target line leaked today and I'm stoked for it to hit stores March 1st. However, I feel that once I touch the fabric and see the clothes on the Target racks they won't have the same appeal (like what always happens when high end designers create cheap lines)... but I'm still excited.

Very mixed views on the collection, but I'd say there are some pretty cool Ts (but cool Ts are like cabs in NYC) and I love the badass look he uses(or maybe its just his models?!).

See it all at Nylon (great magazine that I stopped reading for some reason)

Whats HOTT HOTT HOTT despite the COLD COLD COLD

2009-01-20T13:32:00.000-06:00

Don't be fooled - Spring IS coming... Meaning: New Trends!

Sheer look (loves it)

Caged shoes (loves em')

Silk Pants (I'm sorry its not 1980) - I refuse to even show a picture

Mini Skirts (ehh whatever, I dress like a slut regardless)

Neons Mixed with Neutrals (I do like it - but prob. would not wear it)

Floral (so old but classic, however, I'm so over it)

Class is only good for updating...

Officially Found

2009-01-19T23:35:00.000-06:00

Now that my 5 day drinking binge, 24 hour hangover and 10 hours of unpacking/organizing are dunzo... I figured it would be a good time to update with everything I have been getting dirty with in the last week. ;-)

It has been so f-ing cold and snowy out over the last week, the only thing that has been getting me thru is the promise of Spring Break (eventhough we have yet to plan it). With the sun on my mind, I went online shopping to cloud the truth of my current situation, which was -20!!

JG4B - Jasper Goddall is a graphic designer my friend introduced me to a couple of years ago. He has some pretty cool imagery that he turned into a swimsuit line last year. I'd say if you want a swimsuit that makes a statement/ is unique - go with this brand - its pretty impressive. These are from the same collection but he has a few different ones (some snakes, skulls, all dat' cool shit) and no 2009 yet...

Wanna Save? The 2008 line is currently on sale at net-a-porter

I wonder if these sandals will be the next big thing?! I feel like they could take off like the gladiator sandal. I'm not really sure how I feel about them yet... But I'm defineitely considering them.

School starts tomorrow (yuck)... Final semester at Madison (sad)... Reality is setting in (umm)...

Shoes Are A Girl's Best Friend

2009-01-14T21:42:00.000-06:00

These are begging to take a place in my closet.

The Slow Sunday

2009-01-11T16:00:00.000-06:00

Fuck I'm bored.

Listening to: Big City Lights by Mattafix

Wearing: Uggs, Juicy pants and a shopbop t-shirt (SICK- so typical Madison "I'm at the library but need to look cool"- I may go change after realizing this)

Thinking: What am I going to do next with my life (FUCK is the only thing that really comes to mind)

Missing: Michigan (still, which is weird bc normally i get over things in like 10 min)

Wishing: I was in Madison on Max's couch (I guess he has jizz in his pants?!)

Wanting: My new camera

Get high and watch Idiocracy.

Photo: US in Michigan (aka the lost weekend/week)

Photo Cred: Phillip Bobby

PUFF PUFF COUGH COUGH

2008-12-29T17:24:00.001-06:00

I yearn for the days of old Hollywood and 80's boardroom meetings (ya know just clouds of smoke). Or maybe just when smoking was considered a glamorous and prestigious aspect of mundane life... and to light was a sign of dignity and beauty, not cancer and dangerous second-hand smoke. Today I can't walk 3 feet without the feel of penetrating glares aspiring to terminate my cig in my eye. I thought it was bad when the the Starbucks OUTDOOR patio turned to "no smoking," but to make matters worse, most of Europe is turning American on us and "in the name of health for all" banning smoking in public places, like restaurants, etc. When the French start to turn their back on smoking, I feel its time to say "Au revior cigarettes!" Has smoking become a thing of the past? Is it not as great as Carrie Bradshaw fashioned it to be on Sex and the City? Ultimately, is it time to quit smoking?

Yes... YES... and YESSSSS.... SO the real question is... Can I do it? I'm not saying I'm hardcore addicted, but I do still believe that there is some special feeling one gets when they spark that cig. If there wasn't some sense of Aubrey Hepburn exquisiteness behind every puff, then why do so many damn people want to bum a cig when they are drunk?! (Only answer is - they think its cool) As a New Year's resolution, I'm going to attempt to kick it - in honor of not want to lose a hand to not being able to smoke anywhere and the climate of the frozen tundra aka Wisconsin!

Best of luck to anyone/everyone else that has the same resolution and Happy New Year!

America's New Cash Crop

2008-12-18T14:03:00.000-06:00

I hope they turn this into a poster...

see the full 1980s photo shoot and the article at Time

Do the D.A.N.C.E.

2008-12-17T11:20:00.000-06:00

Exactly 14 days till the new year. You know what they say... "how you spend New Years eve is how you are going to spend the rest of year..." hahaha... that is absolute shit. Last year I spent New Years on a double date with a boyfriend I never really talked to again in 2008. So this year rather than a New Years kiss... I'm looking for a New Years bliss...

Mind altering "I feel like touching you" crack, hott indie high school boys dancing to the b-e-a-t, glow sticks, Justice, one minute to midnight.... its TTHHEE PPAARRTTYY!

www.congresschicago.com

Amor, Amour, Amore!

2008-12-12T01:45:00.000-06:00

In honor of my advice paying off in one case and helping someone understand the dangers of love in another...

10 things Men neither like nor really understand about what women love:

1. Chuck Bass

2. Dark Nail Polish

3. Gossiping about real people we only know through TV/online sites/magazines as if we roll with them daily

4. Crying - sometimes it just feels good

5. Really really expensive candles

6. Emotional shopping

7. Jeans tucked into boots or uggs

8. Dancing

9. Being passive aggressive

10. The MEETING OF THE MINDS!

The New Accessory is... Black.

2008-12-10T22:55:00.000-06:00

So I like fashion and trends almost as much as I like studying at Grainger Library (too many hotties for it not to be my #1 past time activity). Today while I was sitting in the chairs at Grainger eyeing the hott businessmen and searching for the "new" trend... I realized it was... well ME!

No joke.. This might sound like bad categorizing... but according to just about everything... black people are the new hottest "accessory" for the party. First, I don't really have a problem calling humans accessories. I mean what the hell are children?!

But I do kind of have a problem with this. I realize we have a black president (elect) but is it really a reason for social circles to "spice" up their membership? Why not before this? Didn't the civil rights movement end like 40 years ago? Back in the late 1960s people should have reached out and opened up their circles, not now because its the new face of America. Just a thought.

I'm not sure if everyone is just riding the wave or if people are starting to change their views. But over all I still think its WEIRD when PR firms are coming out with lists of the top ten black intellectuals or fashionistas to invite to parties in the "Obama-era."

I feel like inviting a black president into oval office has turned into a social trend that is now being filtered down into the less prestigious circles. Its like the time Gabrille Chanel introduced the tweed suit that was later filtered down to the racks of BCBG and eventually stores like Banana Republic.

Is this good? or bad because its people reacting to what they believe other people want? Eh, whatever. It took me just about the time to write this to realize I was over it and I should just embrace being a cheap knock off of the historic Chanel suit.

Hey, wanna invite me to any great parties? ;-) (kidding)

All I Want For Christmas: A Male Model Boyfriend (sans SDTs)

2008-12-09T18:48:00.000-06:00

Dear Santa...

Forget couture. Forget the diamond tennis bracelet. Forget the candles I'll never use and the weird small things that end up gathering dust.

Forget every season of every show I ever liked on DVD... its no longer doing its job.

Undress... add a bow and just deliver!!!!

** In all reality... I just want to know what happened to all the fashionable, sophisticated, cultured, pretty-eyed, single boys in this world... (maybe its just Madison)**

She's Back!

2008-12-03T11:19:00.001-06:00

Last night our girl, B Spears had her 27th birthday party, which was also the launch party for her new album, "Circus."

Although her album leaked on the Internet weeks ago and a few of her songs have already topped America's charts, I spent the better half of my day listening to "Circus" on repeat. I thought it had a good variety of songs and there is some very creative writing involved (ie: Mmm Papi) but overall it was really sad. After having watched part of her "For the Record" on MTV the other night, this album just amplifies how there are rich executives behind every aspect of her life and that she is really nothing more than just a household brand name abundantly collecting millions for Hollywood (listen to Lucky)... If this was me... I would have went ape shit too.

But for now, let's bow down to the "once pop princess, now queen of pop" cause her comeback is something worthy of our praise.

Personal Favorite Song on the album: Unusual You

Photo Cred: Patrick McMullan

Bang for your Buck

2008-12-02T13:36:00.000-06:00

With the recession setting in, I went on a hunt for the best gifts I could find for under $50 to add to my Christmas list... Just because our economy sucks, doesn't mean our gifts have to!

Check out this purse - perfect for going out and only $23.49.

Photo Cred: ASOS.com

Night With Jessica Catherine

2008-12-01T18:49:00.000-06:00

Thursday December 4 From 6-8 at Atticus (18 North Carroll St.)

Jessica Catherine appeared on the fashion forefront at Milwaukee's fashion week. Her designs are impressive. This is a night in fashion heaven!

FURezzing

2008-12-01T10:21:00.000-06:00

Last night in Madison the snow fell. Walking class to class this morning all I could think about is how I wanted to be prancing around my apartment in this coat with hot coco.

Photo Cred: The Sartorialist

Oh Little Darling

2008-11-29T23:59:00.000-06:00

I've been out of Madison for Thanksgiving break. Although, I was glad to get away, I think I'm happier to return. I spent most of break hitting the racks of every store at the mall and I must say I was extremely disappointed with the selection.

One good find: MAC little darlings ($29.50)- mini size pigments and glitter that are great to use on your eyes, cheeks and face.

Photo Cred: Maccosmetics.com